fagged & worn out. however, i shall remain silence.

k anytime, any second there will be a loud BOOM. I'm so tensed up man. might get a heart attack. How to survive till tomorrow. && home sweet home i'm back!

am very full now. Candy two years old alrdy.

Pause the song & watch it!

Just 4 more days to December. Something big is taking place soon, moving nearer/closer....... to me. Why me? I don't know. Its either good or bad. Good? Cos i found something that i liked. Seems bad. Aiya I'm thinking too much i reckon..

Oh, i woke up at around 8. Automatically(take note). Maybe cos' i didn't receive a msg i expected? I receive it almost every morning. And i can't get back to the bed since then. I slept at 4plus last night. & for quite a number of days too. I'm so _____ tired & sleepy till i cant sleep. Guess so.

Using the com since 9, phone out of battery again. Eh, N70 more powerful lah can last for like 3 days? But i still like my phone, very much tho i do not know the model. N80? or N82? And i want to get my own camera. I turn behind and see cousssiieee sleeping, she's holding her phone like some gems or something, k sounds wrong.

Another reason is that the MRT is quite nosiy. Like every one minute ( or even lesser ) there's a train. I'm on the 38th floor and yet there's sound. Quite powerful eh. My eyes is itchy. Since last night. Luckily there's eye drop. Another train just past, wonder if that ...... Another train again! Like only 10 seconds after the previous one. I guess i know why already. Cos one is going to PR that direction and the only one is going to BL.

This post is so long, crappy, nagging, random. I doubt i would blog another such a long one anytime soon. (Actually its not that long la but its long ok) Unless i wake up at such an early timing again which is quite unlikely if I'm at home. Seldom people online, not even Shark no one to talk to. Cos they are pigs. Cos most are working now. How great their life is. Work, money, work, money.

Again, this post is soo long and meaningless cos' me myself do not know what I'm typing either. 10:52 now and i started at 10? I haven't done something yet. Something that one's has to do it every morning. I'm tired. Got to wash my face. 4 hours of sleep. 3 times less. Another train again...

I want to stay for another day but i need to be back by today. Cos' little candy birthday tomorrow. Wonder what to get for her. Eh jasmineee, come after your work k? At most i don't test your food already. Or i help you clean your delicious white? I will make it shine, no worries. Now it is like salivary black. -__-|\

Dec 23 is coming and it will be easier for me to find jobs. I might had already starved to death by then. Or maybe no one still wna hire me. Xmas coming. And all i want for christmas is you. Sorry. I know that you care .. Its not that i want it to happen but ..... Maybe this really lead to nowhere ..... Up to you lo & you should know that your baby girl loves you alot !

Wa lao I'm sweating. Offed the air con. Didn't on the fan. Lazy ah. & cousssie still wrapped up like sushi roll in the blanket. Powerful man. And someone wa lao me yesterday, i think its the first time ):

Omg, this is long.

Yes I'm prepared! Gogogogogogogogogo. I better on the TV soon else this post will be longer. Or rather, i go open the tv !

Good morning lovelies, its 11.06 now. One hour?

Construction on going, more noises.

Sorry ah Ah jing, you called me twice but i went back to sleep. And you know what woke me up? Felly's msg. I saw and immediately woke up, but i dare not reply. Then i went to bathe. Heh. Street, bus, directory idiot. Someone. Tho the plan failed, it is still splendid overall. Millions thanks to the planner! <3>

Oh ya & we saw Qiang Qiang. & i shouted mama.
-_____________________-
Disgusting, but we still went ahead and snap it.
Ewwwwww, kudos to us!
My battery were flat the whole day.

I'm loving audition! Esp the beat rush. I won't get addicted, cos' i know i won't.

Take a look at the last picture (:
& i doubt i could wake up tmr 1030. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I made myself land into a deep deep pit. Haha i dont know why pit.
<3

My hair kinda smell like, errr.. Hannah, you know?
Who is Andrew?
I washed thrice.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
K don't mind me.

I'm still trying real hard to sleep early & wake up early you know?
Hmm, i went Paragon in the evening alone. Sometimes its nice to be alone you know?
Hahahah.
Find coussieeee , pass her stuff.
Then met joy. Walked, ate, walked, bus, walked, homed, bathed, tv, now here blogging.
Yup. Thats all. And wait for me get my pay ehh joy.
& go all he way to dover. Haha.

Oh today PSLE results. Sck still wanted to go some good school. Haha. My aggregate sucks he won me by one mark. He disappointed i guess? Sigh.

& my daughter in law going genting soooooooooooooooon already. Misssssessss! :( EH Tmt you like never once online leh. But got one time i talk to you just nice you're appearing offline. Caught you!

Yeah I'm sleepy yeah baby!

See the trend? Notice something? Someone favourite pose. Sigh. *Shake head*
Hahaha.

Anw, hopefully can get the job i want.

&you are walking out of the tunnel soonnnnn
<3

Happy already not !

Omg, after i typed that sentence my com immediately hang. The very first time :( Haha x( Must watch what i type in future.

It will not come back again, that feeling.
Promise is a lie aint it?
So, i would not be sad cos' i know the outcome.

EH, i hope i can wake up early tommorow morning. GUESS WHAT? I'm tired of sleeping. I can't get to sleep at night. I counted meh meh. One meh meh, two meh meh, three meh meh..... ninety nine meh meh. I still can't get to sleep. Actually I didn't count la. But i laid on my bed for like an hour plus till 4, 5am. :(

Bowling sucks HAHA. ;(

You won't know what i want cos' you're not me.. You doesn't even bother to try understanding.

**Not you ah joy. not you in case. loves!*

Pain tsk tsk tsk.

I guess I'm really enjoying and taking full advantage of the holiday. Haha i slept for more than 12(or maybe less) Hrs a day. Living life to the fullest. LOL. The only thing that is lacking is a job. Tsk, i got rejected lor! Cos' I'm not yet 16. Sharky, don't laugh............ I want money, cold hard cash. 5 shopping bags on each hand heh ;d

Darling sorry lah ): I dont want to make you sad again ):

Pleaseee go away i dont like you paainnn

Yeah i go play Audi already~
Dont not happy ok ):

I do not feel like going anywhere..

Hi Monkeys, i woke up so early today. Weeeeets great. I hate the taste of Colgate, feel like vomiting yucks. And my ankle is better already weeets! And i just drank cereal omg the taste is horrible. I ate the wrong food again?! ...

Forgetful spells trouble. Sorry my most loved Joy.

You made me upset again. Can all the unhappiness leave me and never come back? .. I was disappointed yesterday.

Yeah dont care dont care dont care anymore ~

I'm a happy, cheerful girl always {:
Just like this.



























I want someone who i can share everything and not one who i play with only.


Happy girl is going to interview tomorrow~ ;or rather later.
ps, today is 13 nov time to msg eugenia. wei i remembered.

It is time for me to be selfish again? Dont make me feel guity, cos i won't i won't i won't. Easier said than done.

Happy Birthday Heng Ah Jing, Pui Eh





























&& must cherish your laogong, cos' she really sooooo nice & sweet. Haha, DONT ask her go momo her liang xin. LOL.

Interest or money?

Yesaar i'm done. Keet going to one blog to another then back to the blog again. Hahaha got the code already. Praise me. No more blog hopping. Tata. (omg i do not like to use the word tata)

Oh && i need a job. I want to work at starhub leh. I want to do their promo. Jaaassssmiinnee. Working in office?! Ahh. There's job available but I dont know.. My mom asked me to work in the bank, dont know which bank recruiting. 16 years old can qualify alrdy. I think its full time? Working hour like 9am to 3/5pm? Me waking up early? Yeah got hope, fat hope. Anw, thts not my interest. Oh & hmm, interest or money? Guess what? i would choose interest. Few months ago i said i would choose money. Haha thts because i hvn't found my interest yet. Up to date, i still haven found my interest though. Is it true that everyone has their own interest/dream/pursuit/whatever?

My face look somewhat like this now.
''($.$)''

Haha. No la not money minded la. Just money-faced. HAHAHA
Money not important, my baby more important hor ;)

Freedom is lurking near. Nov 11 i will be officially free. I've been watching drama series for the past few days. Its nice, a new HK show.

I don't think i'm happy enought but i do not care ! Cos'....... Haha idk.
Joy ah, you know ah, you ah, very ah, quite ah, abit la actually, ok la, not so, adorable. You just take the first and last word of this sentence and dont think too much can alrdy. LOL.

I cant stay at home ! I will have wild thoughts ! I need a job ! I dont like to work, it is tiringgggggg. Bb hire me k??? I will be the best employee, i'll sleep and eat the whole day. Hahaha.

Nights,
unhappy gurlxz
because, no one knows what im thinking. but it doesn't matter cos' .... idk.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KONG KONG.
officially 18 years old already WOR, you can go clubbing allllll you want without borrowing IC from your friend le worrrr.

psps/i thought your birthday was Nov 11.
<3

Treats or Tricks?

should i? should i not?
i let it go once ...... I saw it , just only ........
with this attitude i guess i would let that opportunity go again..
I jumbled up everything again.




































































I miss my bangs.
Jamine gave me this webbie. Haha so silly la pleaseeeee.
Yes, freeeeedom is lurking nearrrr.
Yeah baby yeah;D

I told joylnn i'll be studying but im here blogging. I slept for very very very long for the whole evening. Eat, sleep, watch Tv, play, eat, sleep, play. I'm hungry now. I'm not sleepy leh. (thats why im using com but i should be studying at this time) Ok, i'm goingg out tomorrow. Like finally la! Kong kong's birthday.

I remembered i told Xylia just now that all those i studied came out in the PoA paper today. I thought i was lucky! Then i realised its because i studied everything. Haha kaisu. LOL.

I want to watch Sing to The Dawn !!!!! But it is in animation? cartoon? sigh.

I think i need to download FF alrdy. IE kept having pop up. tsk. I want to be unique and different but it seems like everyone is having the same thing. Hahaaaaaaaaa

Supposed to be Sat now. But i changed to date to Fri later confuse myself ah. and 3.45 am alrdy. OhmyG im still not so sleepy. But im gna go sleep.

Tricks or Treats? ;)

Yeah Jia you Huang jun jie ! :D
Dont rub my forehead haha.
Dont be petty
Dont be fierce
Dont pinch me
I wont ask for trouble already.
hehehehheeheheheee
And you must pass your PoA okok ;)

I dint study much the whole say i was sleeping !
I can't seem to get enough of sleeping.

My results will bring me to where i got to go.
So its ok if i did badly for my Os as long as i could get in Polytechnic. The nearer the better which is TP.
too tired to find my interest.
:)

Amaths' a killer. I can't do the paper..
Goodbye Additional Mathematics and Chemistry.

shut up and go away.
I dont want anything already.

this feeling is making me so hard to breathe
...............................................................

I afraid that my mind will black out once i see the paper.

Hah

Happy birthday's Eamon :)
launching of Okto channel heeh.

again, nov 11 and 7 and now 8 too.
alot of people birthdays coming ~

I missed the chance of doing something i wanted to do badly.
If i see it another time, i will grab hold of it.
double sigh
I've got 4 things to do by next year

I dont like things to drag and ddddrraaaaggg lorrrrrrrrr

When Carmen and i saw the resort stand, we thought it was going to test on pendulum.
haha Mr Petty you are wrong booo
I think its the first time i got a POP sound lo so cool ;D

I'm going to a far far away land

Nov 11 <3
nov 7 too la :D

This is the best joke ever.
>:(

I thought eating something rotten once was bad enough.
Never did i know that it will happen to me TWICE. TWICE IN A ROW SOMEMORE
Tsk tsk tsk

Few days ago, i ate a huge portion of egg tart and i tasted something sour and bitter. Obviously it is spoilt lah. I wanted to spit it out but i accidentally swallowed the whole piece in -____- egg tart shouldn't be that smooth.
My stomach is the poorest thing of all.

Then it was today. which was more stupid. Lazy say. Just that again, i tasted sour in my mouth. The Pandang cake spoilt.
And again, my stomach suffered.
.. feeling so weak now ):

K i've learn from my lesson.
I won't be greedy anymore I'm not gna just put any food into my mouth lor! Maybe one day you will see me carrying a silver needle(like a hair clip or something, on my hair that one) everywhere i go. And before eating i'll poke the needle into my food and see whether the needle changes it colour. If it does, AHH it is poisonous. NOT JK.

There wouldn't be a third time.


Click if you're interested.

My proposal is done, left with chemistry Paper. I think Miss Aida will go thru la so have to do :)

Hope that the class will pay their fullest attention during History. After all, its the last lesson..

yeah Tv time!

Very good. I slept thru the evening again.

....

Happy Birthday Four Years Friend fur.

haha you enjoyed your day. thats great.
<3

Everything is fine. :)

oh and Happy Children's Day.
I dint know it was Children's Day till Miss Huang msged me.
Where's my present?

and, Selamat Hari Raya? i dont know how to spell..
heh cookies
:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAUGHTER-IN-LAW (''v'')

I've got alot of things to tell you. But wouldn't type here teehehe.
Thank you for being always so understanding (:
(ps: leemay too)

I'm glad that you enjoyed your big day & your surprise.
sorry i didnt go )':

Meiting must stay cheerful always!

A great day out
Its been ages since i last went out.
I'm lazy to upload everything.
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At night

I'm online because of thee deareeest leemay.
Hah she knows why ;)

Just as much as i wanted to cheer you up, i know i can't.
cos' i know it wont make any difference in you...

man its pure luck.

<3

3 more days.

nov 11 freedom.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEEMAY <3

sorry couldn't celebrate it on your actual day.

i hope that you did enjoy it.

love,

xoxo

Macbook is so cool but heavy. So heavy la i carry it for like 5 minutes i can't take it already. HA. 

Someday last week, i thought of my window messenger.

Now? Ironic i must say.

i kept the best memories in my heart already girl (:

I spend my weekend watching Hot Shot omg

not gna watch it alr till Os end (:

& Jerry Yan/Yen is sooo cute.

yeah im superman ~

I have only completed Emath paper 1. 

No revision done. Omg.

OMG OMG OMG

haven't seen joy for long. sigh.

Its time for me to be contented again.

I always feel that there's something lacking .... 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA <3

Nineteen months, thank you darling <33

Happiness is too far away, i just cant seem to reach it ..
the emptiness deep within ..
Disappointment & more disappointment ..

maybe it will never be like before alr..
cos' nothing seems to be working / in the right track..

//Yesterday was Tuesday && Tuesday reminds me of Gelare
sheeshh

I ain't feeling so good. It isn't that i like to bottle things up.. But even if i do let it out, or even to the closest person, does it help?

I run away by saying IDK.

bah
meh meh.
oh ya some time last month angel gave me a meh meh && i love it v much :D wanted to use it .. but didn't want to dirty it so i left it in my cardboard. :) && yanchin stopped bringing that mehmeh to school already. ):

&& my baby loves his game more than me ........................................................
bah whatever >:(

Rain please go away.
Thunder too.

Pieces of my tshirts went randomly missing.
V weird.

Anyway, i love my joylicious vvv much k
haha :D

k the rain is getting heavier .......
I'm dead. Got to run later cos' there's no umbrella. Walao where did all my umbrella went ?!?!@#@$@#$
even is there is, i also wouldn't bring it out la.
I do not want to get drench ):
k need to go already ....
bah
the rain is getting even heavier TSk.

Action may not always bring happiness but there's no happiness without action.
Understand?